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Posted by on November 20, 2011

When I was in sixth grade, Nicky Cruz came to town to preach a revival sponsored by several area churches. (I will never forget what grade I was in because several of the girls in my class that took turns being the objects of my unrequited crushes ended up falling in love with Nicky Cruz. After reading his autobiography Run Baby, Run, they decided he was the perfect man: he was exotic, he spoke with an accent, he had been a tough guy but now was telling people about Jesus. He was the bad boy that their mothers would approve of.)

First Baptist Church, where my family attended weekly, sponsored the event along with other churches that apparently worshipped a bit differently than we did. I remember seeing Ms. Gibson there. She was a kindergarten teacher at my elementary school, and she was mean. When we gathered in the auditorium before school and waited for the bell to ring, she always made us sit down and be quiet. She wouldn’t even let us get up to go to the bathroom, so there was no sense in even asking her if you could go sit next to a friend whose bus arrived later than yours. Her room was located next to the cafeteria, and I remember her yelling at classes on their way to lunch who made the near-fatal mistake of disturbing Ms. Gibson’s kindergartners. Ms. Gibson didn’t attend First Baptist… I realized quickly that she must attend one of those weird churches. Maybe not one with snakes, but definitely one different from First Baptist.

Before Nicky Cruz came out to preach, we sang several songs. Some of them I knew, some of them I didn’t. At my church, we sang with hymnals. If you were super-spiritual, you might close the hymnal on the last verse and sing it with your eyes shut. Apparently, this makes it look like you are praying the words, and that might impress God. Ms. Gibson must have gone to a different kind of church because there is no way you can sing with your hands up in the air like that. How can you see your hymnal if you are holding it above your head?

I remember staring at her, dumbfounded. I think I was surprised she was there, and I was definitely surprised by her behavior. The only emotion I had ever seen her display was anger… anger at a sixth grader who was too loud outside of her room, anger at a group of fifth grade boys who tried to get up and go sit near a group of fifth grade girls. Yet, here she was… the meanest kindergarten teacher I had ever encountered… lifting her hands and singing with reckless abandon. The look on her face as she sang was one of absolute joy.

For several years, I didn’t really understand what Ms. Gibson had experienced those nights before Nicky Cruz spoke. Then, in high school, I attended a student ministry that encouraged worship. The youth minister taught us that there was freedom in worship… freedom to sing out loud, to stand, to sit, to lift one’s hands, and a freedom not to. Under his leadership, I began to understand that worship doesn’t always look the same.

I began to understand that sometimes, one lifts one’s hand’s out of complete surrender. Other times, doing so may be a gesture of absolute praise. I remember being taught that when little children desire closeness with their father, they will often reach up with open arms, waiting to be held. Is it really so different with our Heavenly Father? Perhaps the most surprising idea was that raising my hands in worship blesses God. Psalm 134 reads, “Come, bless God, all you servants of God…. Lift your praising hands to the Holy Place, and bless God.”

This morning, my bride and I took our girls to my brother’s church. He has been leading worship regularly there since last spring, and he mentioned to us the other night that my sister-in-love would be singing lead on “Freedom Reigns,” a great song from Jesus Culture. This morning, as we sang praises, keeping my hands down would have required a straight jacket. On more than one occasion, I could not sing… all I could do was stand there, arms stretched towards heaven, letting the songs of others wash over me as I silently prayed. I stood, arms outstretched, praying and crying as Jaime sang the words, “Freedom reigns in this place, showers of mercy and grace. Falling on every face, there is freedom. My Jesus reigns in this place, showers of mercy and grace. Falling on every face, there is freedom.”

I didn’t lift my hands because I am super-spiritual. I am anything but that. (Those who know me best will tell you that I love Jesus, but I cuss a little.) I stood with arms outstretched because I understand Ms. Gibson a little better these days. I stood with hands lifted high, occasionally singing with abandon, because God is worthy. I have seen others get excited at football games and cheer with fervor, I have seen people on the front rows of concerts waving their arms as their favorite bands sang. Why do some find it comfortable in those settings but not in church?

The sixth grade version of me was puzzled by Ms. Gibson. The adult version of me wishes I could thank her. My sister this morning led us to worship with abandon. Years ago, Ms. Gibson showed me what that looked like.

5 Responses to Freedom

  1. Jason Greathouse

    Blair I just wanted to say thank you for what you meant to me as a young person. As a young kid, I came from a broken home. I had no father figure in my life. I had just moved to a small town called New Brockton and was a shy 7th grader. I was invited to church by another guy who attended First Baptist NB. You were the youth leader and you showed me love that no other grown man had before. I became a christian sometime later, and you were a big part of that. I will never forget some of the memories from that chapter in my life. You yourself taught me about worship and you took me to AtlantaFest. I remember the Dctalk Jesus Freak cd came out that year, and you let me borrow it. You used to shake my hand and say “Excuse for the growth” as you curled your thumb inward. And you opened my mind to the thought of ministry. I am a youth leader now myself, and a lot of that is because of your example. You were my first youth leader, and I just wanted to say thank you so much for how you showed Jesus to a lil junior high boy in 1995. You were my Ms. Gibson.

  2. blair.andress

    Bro, you have no idea what your kind words mean to me. A friend of mine was looking at a possible transition in her life, and I told her last week that God was going to keep her where she could be used most. I then told her, “And you know what else? You probably won’t know this side of heaven how many lives you have impacted. Our pride couldn’t handle it, so God doesn’t always let us know. Sometimes, he lets us catch a glimpse, though… just to keep us going…. just to keep us motivated.”

    Thanks for letting me catch a glimpse.

    • Jason Greathouse

      I know what you mean by the “glimpses.” Sometimes in my own ministry I can get down on myself, and I feel like none of the youth are getting it. I have even felt like hanging up the youth leader hat. Then sometimes God does something to show me a glimpse. Just a small thing, maybe a parent that tells me something that their kid said to them at home. Maybe I overhear the youth discussing what we talked about in small groups. And it refuels my passion for service to Him and our young people. Glad I could be of service to you also lol.

  3. Susan Powers

    You know Blair, I went through a long period of time when I thought singing & praying with arms outstretched was just some weird charismatic stuff designed to make the rest of us look unrelligious. Then I heard Dr. M. Scott Peck (The Road Less Travelled) say we shouldn’t worry about those folks; they were just having fun; let em alone. That gave me pause, because I had to admit that absolutely no one was being hurt. Then I started learning my history. Hebrew prayers were always delivered with arms reaching for YHWH! Penitential style kneeling and supplicant prayer didn’t appear until somewhere around the 15th century, maybe because those old cathedrals didn’t have any place to sit, muchless kneel.

    Now I am Episcopalian so don’t go looking to see me with my arms up, unless it’s during the Peace when we all take a stretch break. But every once in awhile you can look around an Episcopal church, and at the place where the priest says LIFT UP YOUR HEARTS! you just might see some folks ever so cautiously responding WE LIFT THEM TO THE LORD with their palms up and their arms waist high and with the most unusual smile on their face.

    • blair.andress

      Susan, one of the most amazing worship services I have ever been a part of was when a good friend of mine was married. Though he is now a Presbyterian pastor, he was raised Catholic. I believe that for him, and for some members of his family, the liturgy was important, so he and his bride were married in an Episcopal service. A good friend of mine leads worship at an Episcopal church down in Fairhope… probably in a more non-traditional setting than most Episcopal churches in the try-county area.

      I hope I didn’t communicate judgment of those who may not be as comfortable raising a hand in worship… like I said, I learned years ago that worship can take many different forms.

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